Domestic Violence SUCKS!!!

Saturday September 18, 2010 a friend of mine was murdered. She was one of the nicest people I know. She was a single mother of a 12year old girl. At first I felt numb and fearful. Then nothing.....nothing at all! Just remembering how I just saw her and thinking how could this happen? Why did this happen? Then thinking how my life could have ending the same way as hers did. She didn't deserve to die the way she did, she didn't deserve to leave behind a little girl that loved her mommy so much. But who am I to say what she deserves or not. I just have to trust that God was with her and he knows the plans he has for her daughters life.

The lesson I taught my all-stars was about how God knows everything about us. He knows everyday of our lives, he knows how many hairs we have on our head, he knows our every thought and he loves us so much! After that lesson I couldn't help to think about Syd and how God knew that she would die like that. I often wonder why he allows things to happen the way they do, especially if they are horrific. He reminds me of what his son said, life is not going to be easy and how he promises a better life for us if we believe in him.

I went to pay my respects to Sydney's family the other night and still I felt numb. Listening to speakers talk about her life and watching the picture slideshow, still I felt numb...nothing, no emotion I thought what is wrong with me? Then it came over me like a 20 foot wave crashing on my head pushing me deep into the water and sand below. I wept on her mothers shoulder and wept on her sisters shoulder and the on her daughters shoulder. I felt like I wanted to take their pain but it was those 3 ladies who took my pain. It reminded me if my moms funeral. People were coming to console me but I felt like I was consoling them. I walked out of the room feeling like a blubbering idiot! I couldn't even control my emotions and I felt terrible about it. I hope they forgive me. Even now I cannot control my emotions just thinking about the horrible thing that happened to Sydney. I will continue this later...

Tennis

Mia's tennis season started on September 18th. Her first match she played doubles with Maddie. They played a great game!! I'm always a little worried when the playing season begins but she did better than I thought she would. It amazes me how noncompetitive my offspring is. She didn't get an ounce of my competitive spirit. Writing this makes me remember a lesson I taught a few weeks ago, it was how God made us all unique and wonderfully made. What we see and value in our society is winning and appearances. But that's not what God values...he looks at our hearts. If our heart is good then as far as God is concerned who cares what you look like or if you win. I have to constantly remind myself of that. I get so caught up with outward appearances and winning and forget what truly is important. That's what I love my Lord he gently reminds me how I should be thinking rather than making me feel guilty about it.

Getting back to Mia's tennis match...they lost but it was a great match! I told her she needs to be lighter on her feet and not to rely on her partner. She was disappointed in her lost but I was sure she would get over it quicker than I did! ;)I love watching her play, her reach is so long and she is as quick as cheetah. I secretly wish I was as naturally athletic as she is. I hope I don't sound bitter...LOL!

Hawaii Five-O and Alex O'Loughlin

Tonight was the premiere episode of Hawaii Five-O and I've been super excited to watch it for weeks!!! The show was great and Alex O'Loughlin was so hottt!  oh Scott Caan was hot too.  The show was impressive, it looked like a movie rather than a tv show.  The acting was good and when Alex spoke pidgin, a local hawaiian slang way of talking, he was so cute.  Most times it's not that cute...remember North Shore with Keanu Reeves?!  They made the island appear even more beautiful than it is.  I never take my island's beauty for granted but watching this show made me want to go to Hawaii!!!!  I especially loved the first 5 minutes when they panned the sandbar in Kaneohe Bay!  I never get tired of seeing the Bay...it is my back yard and I love it!  I hope people like the show as much as I do.  And I hope I get to see Alex in person.  oh and  Scott too!!  Hopefully Alex will get a really bad sunburn on his cute face and will come to Dr Kenner's office and I can give him a soothing facial!!!  Hey...I can wish, can't I ?  Mondays and CBS are my new best friends!

Rainy days and Mondays...

I love rainy days...rain makes everything clean again.  It also has a way of slowing everything down.  It also brings a refreshing change to sunny days!  I love rain!  Mondays are the same.  It comes without warning...It gives me a chance to start fresh.  Mondays begin the week like the morning begins the day!  I have a choice to live each moment for the moment or to live each moment for the opportunity that it will benefit me in this race that I am in! 

Yay!  The clouds are finally moving up the mountains...soon I will start to see the wonderfully beautiful waterfalls that all this rain has created!

Jesus Rocks!

I cannot tell you how much my Lord Jesus Rocks!!!  He has given me ability far beyond my worldy body can do.  I love how when you say that you cannot, He says "yes you can!"  Lord forgive my unbelief....i believe but help me with my unbelief.  Give me more of you!

NO TV Tuesdays

Tonight was awesome!  i had 4 clients all waiting in line to get their hair waxed off!  3 of them were under the age of 10!  I'm starting them young....actually they jumped me, twisted my arms and made me wax their little 6,8 and 9 year old mustaches!  Oh and my little 9 year old got her legs waxed too!  she is so grateful...she doesnt hate her hairy legs anymore because they're not hairy scary anymore!  I tried to enforce a new rule called no tv tuesdays...it didnt work!  too many kids against just one short adult!  Darn kids, who told them they could grow taller then me....

i'm so glad i can count on God's promises....So now there is no condemnation for those who belong to Christ Jesus.  And because you belong to him, the power of the life-giving Spirit  has freed you from the power of sin that leads to death.  Romans 8:1-2

Good Nighty night

Discouragement!!

Isnt it funny how certain people, probably unknowingly, totally and completely make you feel discouraged!  I'm the type of person that gets her feelings hurt pretty easily.  I try super hard to block discouraging and hurtful things with my outer shell and I do somewhat of a good job pretending that it's allll goood.  but deep under my shell I'm a softy!  often times I feel betrayed and then I retreat into my tatered shell, the only thing that saves me.  How can it save me if it's been beaten so many times?

I wonder if those certain people know that the devil is using them to break my faith?  I wonder if the devil has ever used me to tear down someone's hope.

The best thing I can do is stand on the truth and that truth tells me not to be afraid or discouraged and that the Lord God is always with me.  The truth also tells me that He knows the plans He has for me and that its plans for good and not for evil.  Those plans will give me a future and a hope!  How awesome is that!

As for me, I look to the Lord for help.  I wait confidently for God to save me, and my God will certainly hear me.  do not gloat over me, my enemies! For though i fall, I will rise again. though i sit in darkness, the Lord will be my light.  micah 7:7-8

Rest in knowing that there is a God who is alive and He loves you.